A day worth celebrating :)

Had been constantly following one of my colleague's blog. I love his blog because he is a good story teller and I like the way he describes the little things happening in Perdana University. He records his medical school life by having a counting to every of his post e.g The Med School Report - Day 365. Yes, he just reminded me that we have come to the 365th day of our medical school lives. I remember someone once told me, what are you scare of? One year is so short if you count it by months. Yes, one year can be really short, because it is just 12 months. But one year can be long, because it is 31557600 seconds. So many things can happen in 31557600 seconds, be it ups or downs, but I believe no cloud is so dark that the sun can't shine through. There may be things that upset you but the sadness fades, eventually. First year just passed. And I am now embracing my second year, with greater aspirations. They say, if your dreams don't scare you, they are not big enough.

19th September is Perdana University's official Founder's Day. Thus, like my colleague, I would also like to wish my university a very Happy Birthday. I will continue to be proud of you and make you proud one day.

Eye Contact Attraction

You know at times, from someone's eyes you can read his/her mind. Mind-readers enter your mind through your eyes. Liars exposed themselves if they show rapid eye movements. Love at first sight means 8.2 seconds of eye contact. Let's do some eyes practice, too!

Learn to use your eyes to their full potential:
Make constant eye contact when in conversation. Looking away (especially down) is a sign of inferiority and uncertainty. Instead, look at your conversation partner dead in the eyes and keep them locked on.

Master the piercing stare. You know when someone looks at you and it feels like they can see into your soul? Well that’s not a hereditary characteristic, it just takes practice. Work on sharpening your gaze in the mirror. You’ll know you have it when it’s intimidating to continue looking at yourself.

The Trio

I miss the three of us. Like very, very much.

I hope the trio is still there.

Comfort Zone

Wanted to write something about the new chapter of my life but I realise they are a bit here and there and I don't know how to organise it into a story. So I think I would just highlight one of the epic story happened on me in this very first week of my new semester. The story is quite straight forward and simple la. Throw you a question here and you will get me: What would you do, if you shower halfway and suddenly no water?

This whole story begins when I moved into my new house. It is a town house and I am living in the upper unit. This resulting in my house having really POOR water pressure. That is why I didn't feel very weird when I shower halfway and the water started to become smaller and smaller. But not when the water stopped completely! I was like, ah crap. So I took all my toiletries and went to the other bathroom downstairs to continue to bathe. God knows how lucky I was. Once again, the water stopped! Hell no. I never thought this kind of thing can happen on me. My house mates were all upstairs. So I can only...shouted for help. House mates couldn't figure out why the water suddenly stopped too. So I was left naked in the bathroom with soaps on me somemore. I think I was already calm and steady enough because I didn't scream or did any other stupid things. Lol.

My house mates gave me 2 options, to either wrap myself in towel and go to guys' unit to continue my bath (NO NO this shouldn't even be an option), or they helped me to carry water to my bathroom. Although I very much didn't want to trouble my house mates, I chose the second option. Hence the whole story ended awkwardly. (It was found out later that our water pipe was closed by someone don't know accidentally or we actually had enemies and it was a prank. Lol.)

That is why sometimes I hate to change. To change, you must be ready to face all these kind of things which are totally out of your expectation. Yes, new house is comfy and big and near to university and good environment and no mosquitos and good food is just around me. But somehow I just miss my old place where I don't have to face water problem, everything is ready there, house mates are just studying beside you but not separated now by the tall wall,  and I even have a beautiful lake where I can jog whenever I want. Sometimes I really do wish I can stay in my comfort zone forever.

Crown me the queen of indecisiveness

Curiosity doesn't kill. Indecisive kills. I remember I have emphasised before that I hate people who can't make no matter big or small decisions in their lives. That is why sometimes I can be really mad at myself. To the extent that I hope I can give myself a slap or hang myself to death instead. I can die. I wasn't born with silver spoons or gold spoons or whatever spoon in my mouth. When I was young I have been taught by my family that every single cent must be spent wisely and we never splurge on buying branded stuffs. I wouldn't deny this part of me made me into who I am now, who is extremely indecisive when it comes to money.
Story begins. I needed to purchase something so these are the steps that I did.


1. I asked my friend who is familiar with this for recommendations of brands and shops. So he gave me a few recommendations which were having promotions.

2. Google-ed (yes Google is my best friend that I can't live without) the recommendation of my friend (no no I swear it was not because I don't trust my friend).

3. Went to the shop for the first time and confirmed everything that was shown on their websites are correct. Went back without purchasing.

4. Stared at the brochure at home for countless time and think and think and think. Went back to the websites to recheck the dateline of the promotion and think and think and think. Passed by the shop a few times and think and think and think.

5. Finally decided to purchase (on the last day of the promotion period somemore wth). Went to the shop  and asked again all the details. Don't know why started to consider again, although I came telling myself that I would purchase this today (I am serious!). Okay lah I would just buy. Told the salesperson that I wanted this package and gave my IC to him for final registration. While the salesperson was keying in my personal details, I wondered what struck me at that moment and I yelled: Stop! I decided not to purchase. Let me go home and consider about it. Got my IC back. Went home empty-handed.


Story ends. Someone please tell me what was wrong with me.

Extended version of the story:
6. Promotion period has over and I am now regretting for not purchasing it. FML.

Food for thought.

写信给十年后的自己

十年后的自己：

迈入三十了，一切可好？从二十多岁的小女孩蜕变成轻熟女了吗？我想，你应该正为工作而忙得不可开交吧。或许正在为政府作牛作马，或许开了自己的一家诊所？虽然其实自己最想开的是一家咖啡厅。那五年的学医生涯，再苦也是熬过了。你知道的。所以你不会去埋怨，因为你很清楚雨后的彩虹的道理。即使是天天的on call，我猜你一定也能在你的工作中找到乐趣。以你的个性，我想你一定正在怀念着读书的日子。多久没有约中学大学的同窗好友出来叙叙旧了？念旧的你，想念了，就拿起你的电话吧。

这十年，都是一个人在过吗？有对象了？结婚了？有孩子了？噢，我想应该不会这么快的。我太了解你了。那想隐藏却隐藏不了的事业心。有个对象就很好了吧，把二十岁那年结束的初恋给埋葬埋葬。初恋很美，可是不能紧抓，放开来，放在心底才是最美的。妈妈一定超担心的，一定在问你什么时候要把男朋友介绍给她认识。你一定会这样回答妈妈：先担心姐姐再说吧！哈哈，那迟婚主义者的姐姐，不知道十年后是否还是一样。

想出书的梦想，还没放弃吧？你不是一个很会说故事的人，却很喜欢用文字来抓住人们的心。最想最想有那么一天，人们能够看着你的文字，体会着你的心情。如果十年后真的出书了，那你可真是美梦成真！驾车了没？不会还像以前一样，永远享受着当乘客的滋味吧。不过如果你已经找到了那愿意永远接送你的那个他，那就不一样了。去了几个国家了？旅行啊，傻瓜。不要总是说工作很忙没放自己假啊。没有旅行的伴？一个人吧。一个人看世界也不错的。还是一样爱看电视剧吗？如果你还像十年前一样抱着枕头在电脑前面看电视剧看到哭，那你一定超可爱的。爱哭鬼，还哭吗？

从以前就一样，觉得最不想看的病人就是自己的父母。我相信你这几年来的生日愿望一定都没有变，第一个愿望将永远属于他们。父母的健健康康，就是我的幸福宝藏。

或许，你现在最享受的，是坐在咖啡馆悠闲地度过每一个午后时光。没有很华丽又遥不可及的梦想，只有每一天最朴实的感动，实实在在的。单身也好，有对象也罢。你一定还是像以前一样，凡事都付出百分百，丝毫不差，将每一天过得灿烂充实。爱自己多一点，你会很好的。加油！


十年前的自己  上

On Fire. On Fire. On Fire.

                                                                               

Sexy may not be what a man wants, but it must be what a man loves.
I may not own you, but I shall own your heart.

New template for my blog, time for a change babe.
I am no longer the innocent little girl. I will make you fall in love with me.