To: A special friend

Sometimes we are friends, sometimes we are not.

We once share our troubles together.

We once share one drinks together.

We once slept together.

But sorry we are too alike.

Physics concept have proved that: same poles repel, different poles attract.

We always want for the same thing.

So we fight. Because none of us like the feeling of losing.

We become enemies for most of the time.

We are the nearest to each other but our hearts are the furthest away.

But dear friend, I am here to talk to you.

I hope this somehow makes our heart closer.

Sometimes I feel like I wanted to sayang u very much as I know u feel lonely.

And maybe u need me.

But I am too proud to put down my pride.

I have set up wall against you, I dont want to be the one who concedes defeat first.

Sometimes I think I have misunderstand you, and maybe we can back to the time we were once close.

You win and I lose most of the time.

But when I heard you saying winners are always lonely,

my heart melts.

I realise I am very selfish.

I lose all the time, but I am too blessed.

I have many nice friends, no matter my sec friends, matrics friends, classmates or family.

Sorry, maybe I should be the one closest to you, accompanying you.

But I cant. We just dont meant for each other.

But I wish to give u my sincere wishes here.

In this new year, I hope that there is someone in your life,

who can always beside you, so that you wont be alone.

I hope this person is able to mould you into a better person.

So that people no longer thinks that you are very hard to deal with.

I am willing to put down my wall against you, but I just cant be the one beside you, cry with you, laugh with you.

Sorry for all those cold shoulders I have given you.

I hope I can be more generous towars you too.

Give me more time to accept.

Girl, you dont need to act strong all the time.

Stop always doing things alone.

Dont eat alone. Dont jog alone. Dont walk alone.

You are not that strong.

If you are reading this,

Jiayou my friend.

With love.

Hello readers!
I wanted to keep my blog active very much.
But I cant as my life is as hectic as usual.
I know people might lose interest towards this pity blog as I have abandoned it all the time.
But I am already trying my best to update my life as frequent as possible.
So, have a short visit here maybe once in a month? hehe. :p

Please dont leave me

Today is the 2nd day of 2012!
I want to share with you guys of how I countdown for this new year!
Instead of partying all night, clubbing, eating and celebrating hard for the new year,
my friends and I had a serious and silent countdown.
We sit in a circle, holding each other's hands like what I did during my Stjohn's life,
recalling back our 2011, asking for forgiveness, and making wishes for our 2012.
It was a nice way of welcoming 2012.
Why fill every celebration with liquor and foodsss, right? hehe.
2011 was a year full of changes.
A lot of new things and new people and new environment.
And I know 2012 will be another year of unknowns.
God blessed, please.

I dont know how to define bitch, but I think she's one.
I dont think it's my jealousy that overcomes me, that blinded me.
Her action just makes me feel annoyed and disgusted.
I wish I could escape out of her.
I dont want to tie up my life together with her anymore.

I dont know am I capable for you to say you are jealous of me.
Am I really blessed now for having you with me?
Am I dreaming now, and going to wake up to reality in no time?
I dont love it that much, I just love the way you love me.
I dont know how to love.
Sorry.


<3
I love my band very much.
I love Seven Souls very much.
Please dont leave me. Please.

Rock Your Life with us, Seven Souls

Rewinding back time to the day audition of College Band held.
I was reluctant to go at the first place.
Thank you Lee Pui Hong for ajak me to go!
Hence, my band life started off.
Feeling very blurrrr with the Malay songs at first.
Ended up with falling in love with Malay songs now.
The first performance is the one I enjoyed the most.
I guess all the super friends and the shadow think so. :)
And the climax of my passion starts during the Battle of the Band.
I have 6 awesome members fighting together with me.
My drummer Mr Fateh.
My Bassist Mr Husaini.
My dear Keyboardist Lee Pui Hong.
My guitarist Azhar and Daus.
And the vocalist Mustaza.
Showing you the video of our grand final!
Hysteria from Muse.
Sorry for not very clear music.
A veryyy rocking song. Get ready to be a ROCKER :p

It may not be the best show from Seven Souls.
Because I personally think that all my awesome members can perform better and better and better.
We were kinda unlucky because we were the first to perform that night.
U can say that it's a myth that normally, first team to perform will be easily forgotten.
And the truth is, we were not the champion that night.
We were shocked of the almost flawless performances from the other bands.
We were sad and disappointed.
BUT seriously I feel very very very proud of them.
My sadness must be nothing compared to theirs.
All bacause that they prepare so much for this battle.
They think of everything for us,
Because I never joined band, I am not experienced.
what I could do is just accept everything they prepare as for granted.
I always remember that someone told me, we play the music that we want,
not for getting the champion, but to impress the audience.
Make the audience respect the way we play music.
Always presenting the best music for the audience.
They got brillliant ideas, for they are all experienced band members.
I feel good, feel lucky, feel satisfied to be a member of Seven Souls.
Without a good ending, but I had a nice journey.
I clearly know that I wont get any chance to be a band member in the future.
And my band life will be my greatest memory in Matriculation. Irreplaceable!
Another passion in me was found.
The spirit inside me will never die.
Thanks all. :) <3

Specially dedicated to the
Seven Souls! :D
No more sadness out of Battle, you guys are the best yo! ;)