Thursday, September 27, 2012

A piece of thought.

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were...
so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as when one problem was solved, a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans.

She let them sit and boil; without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, “Tell me what you see.”

“Carrots, eggs, and coffee,” she replied.

Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked, “What does it mean, mother?”

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.

The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.

However, the ground coffee beans were unique. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water. “Which are you?” she asked her daughter.

When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?

Think of this: Which am I?

Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor.

If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate yourself to another level?

How do you handle adversity?
Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

Friday, September 21, 2012


“ 哇,你怎么这么有口福。每天午餐都不用愁!她对你,也太好了吧!” 身边的男性朋友贼贼地开始靠拢了过来,对着今天的菜色开始品头论足。
“ 什么嘛。我呀,最讨厌就是吃花椰菜了!” 男孩用嫌弃的眼神斜眼瞄着饭盒,凶巴巴的把双手交叉摆在胸前,宣告着:我不会吃你做的菜,你也不会是我的菜!




” 我有男朋友了。” 一开始女孩马上给了男孩一个震撼弹。
“ 可是我....我已经习惯了你对我的好。我不能没有你的饭盒,我不能没有你带给我心头暖暖的感觉。没有你,我好像....怪怪的。我是喜欢上你了吧。” 男孩很专注地看着女孩说。
“ 我不爱你了。爱你,太累了。”
“ 不累,不累!以后,你做的饭盒我都吃,花椰菜我也吃!都听你的!” 男孩眼眶开始有泪。

“ 谢谢你。但是,我现在,只想每天做寿司给爱我的那个他。”


Saturday, September 15, 2012

I lied. I lied?

This is my real story.

It started off with JPA came out the letter of agreement of Perdana University late. Super pissed off.
JPA is like, never punctual, cheating all the way.
Well, that is not my main point.
So I printed out the documents late. And I have 3 copies of Dokumen Perjanjian where I need to find a saksi to guaranteed me bonded by JPA, guaranteed me following their terms and conditions and things like that. Normally we need a Pengetua to be our saksi. A teacher of certain grades so it is Pengetua.
So I went back to SSI yesterday.
Very unfortunately, Pengetua was not in at the moment, and I was told that she will not be back until next week. Okay bo bian. I am going to PU next week, must be done today.
Hence I went to SAB. YES their Pengetua was in! So I entered her room and requested her to sign for me. Very dramatically. When she was about to sign, the pen almost touched the paper! She asked : " Kamu pelajar sini kan? "
My first instinct : " Oh no no, saya pelajar SSI. "
GONE. She put down her pen and refused to sign for me. She said she only signed for her ex students.
Okay well. Bye bye.

I went to the third school. SMK Muhd Khalid which is near to SSI too.
And, uh oh. Still very dramatically. The same thing happened. Pengetua don't want to sign for non ex-students.
I came out from the room with tears. I must get the documents done today! What if, nobody can sign for me. Nobody dares to be my saksi.
Then my mummy saw me and knew the reason.  She said : " Why don't you just said yes I am the ex-student of this school? No Pengetua will remember faces of every students. "

The fourth school is Convent.
Their Pengetua is a kind Chinese woman. I mean, she looked kind.
And the same question appeared, " You are ex-student of this school right? "
" Err.... " I was hesitating should I lied.
" Okay so let me see.... " Phew! She didn't probed me to answer. So I decided to keep silent.
Finally I came out from her room with her chop rasmi and signature.
Mummy said: " See! You could have save a lot of time if you don't exclaim yourself as SSI student at the first place. "

The moral of my story is, lying helps at certain time?

Monday, September 10, 2012



Thursday, September 6, 2012

Leader or follower?

"Willing of discovering the world beat down the willing of having a routine life."

This is my dearest sister's quote that makes her having the courage to start a new life in France.
Me too, hate to have a routine life.
That is why sometimes I love holidays and hate holidays at the same time.
Because holidays make me ended up having routine life, sleep, eat and lazy. I am, seriously, going to love my life if it is exciting everyday. Opening up your eyes every morning and you have small excitement in your heart because you have expectations to the day.
Yes, sleep like there is no tomorrow is a bliss, but it is a short bliss.
I wouldn't mind to enjoy the small bliss once in a while, but not everyday! That will be a life without motive.
Most of the friends around me have started their new life in their universities.
I know soon it will be my turn too, but you just feel insecure inside. The feeling is like, why I am still lazy-ing at home? I am having the feeling of being the minority.

Would you prefer to be a nobody in a strongly competitive society, where groups of geniuses are around you, OR be a leader in a less competitive society?
The first situation is suffocating. It is like, you lose all the time. You lose the chance to show your talents. Or maybe in fact people have greater talents that you do. You clapped for others instead of receiving the applause.
But I wouldn't like myself to be in the second situation as well. A leader in a less competitive society will slowly lose its real ability inside. Even without himself noticed. Ego slowly built. This is not healthy.
So I am, luckily ( maybe? ) in the first situation.
I may not really be a nobody, who knows? Okay laaa I must say I hate to lose. Lol.
So I will try hard to be a somebody in it.

The thinking of she is alone there makes me really want to pray for her everyday.
Jiayou my brave Sister!

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Hello September!

September is coming, it indicates changes in my life, and perhaps many's lives.


Firstly, I must learn to say Goodbyes.
Sister is flying to France tomorrow for her 2 years Master in Pure Chemistry programme.
I will not be seeing her for 2 years! I am gonna miss her and worry for her.
Yet I am feeling very proud of her because she gets this scholarship not from Malaysian government, but from the Europe government. It is, you know, so proud of it. :) Malaysian government is always kinda, disappointing, eh?
Terms frequently using these days are luggage, airport, Euro money and etc.
However, there are words that I wouldn't dare to tell her, that I am sincerely wishing her the best, take good care especially during the cold weather, and tell me how snow looks like! hehe.
If you never met my sister and wondering how she's like,
People, let me tell you. My sister is an amazing one.

Brother is going to University Tun Hussien Onn aka UTHM for his 4 years degree programme.
In this 4 years, he must changed, to better, hopefully.
He must meet good mates, good lecturers, good environment.
Only then he will shine out and, yeah, prove what you can do okay!

Matric friends, and even some Secondary mates are all heading to their respective universities.
I guess there are anticipation and exciteness in them.
If it is me, I won't be mumbling on Facebook saying that you can't bear saying goodbyes to Holidays.
I am really contented of it, and instead, I am looking forward to studying again,
I am really excited about my future. :)


I easily experience mood swings, with something I don't know why.
When I am getting elder, I always end up disappointing in relationship among people. People will say, this is a process of growing up.

He speaks of his bad infront of you, but tomorrow you see he is still intimate with him.
He says ' I love you ' to someone who he don't love, just because someone loves him too much to the extent that he feels that he has to repay and nobody want to lose free love.
When he knows that people really really loves him a lot, that people has put him at the first place, he leaves, enjoying the free love, because he has own people's heart.

So ugly. But brilliant.
So I guess growing up is discovering ugly things.



I am in a process of becoming prettier!

I am having the Ugly Betty smile. Lol.

It is already the fourth day of me putting on braces.
Chose red as the colour of my braces and hey, I noticed that Red surrounds me recently! I wonder why. Haha.
Mine is considered a serious case I guess, as I noticed that my dentist spent quite a time explaining to me why she had to put 2 plastics at the back of my teeth. According to her, if she didn't put those plastics, my upper teeth will knock off the lower part of the fixed appliances. So the function of those 2 plastics is to prevent my upper and lower teeth from contacting with each other.
Complicated to understand? Yea you just need to know that it resulting in me cannot chew at all.
Ohh I tell you this is miserable. I have been swallowing my food these days.
Eating is meaningless to me right now.
Despite of Mummy's mouth-watering food, I eat oat and porridge. D:
Every morning wake up and realise there are full of wires in your mouth, pulling hard as the teeth, they are all struggling to line themselves up in a line, the feeling is awful.
I cannot Laugh Out Loud like before anymore.
Plus, the ulcers. I get ulcers because of not used to the wires. Sighhh.
Don't know what to do, what put on has been put on. You are not expecting me to give up here and tell my dentist, hey remove all the wires. LOL.
Will be meeting my new friends in Perdana in my braces-look then.
I see suffering life ahead!
That is why people agree to this quote so much, 没有丑女人,只有怕苦的女人!

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